Do I need Self-Control??!!

I've grown since i came to sydney... literally. I mean, I added a few inches here and there (some say they can't see A THING) and honestly, I've also reached the dreaded 5okg point on the scale when I got here.. Well, to be more precise, I've reached the 53kg point and now maintaining at 50kg. Yeah, I've been doing some comfort eating considering the fact that it is the only thing that took my mind out of thinking about home and the "demanding" uni tasks but I've never thought that I will see the day that I have the potential of reaching 53kg or maybe 55kg.. huhu...

well, I can only be grateful for the increasing weight.. Don't get me wrong, I do want to gain weight.. Back home, I've tried all sort of things just to gain a few kilos such as protein supplement and stuff but it just doesn't work as well as I expected it to be... Hurrrmmm.. maybe this could be valid reason for me to apply for a PR in Australia.. :"why do you want to live in australia??" "because it's easier for me to gain weight, sir"

haha.. okay, maybe that was a bit too foolish but I haven't had breakfast yet which usually consists of either 6 slices of french toasts with nuttella topping or possibly 3 pancakes with maple syrup or maybe 2 bowls of cereal with milk.. before moving on to the lunch section at 12pm where i can usually tolerate 4 sandwiches or probably two plates of rice would do just good.. For the evenings, i only have a mug of hot drink and some sausages or meatballs or 2 scrambled eggs with bread. And I'll have my dinner at 7pm (usually) after doing some cooking with durra... Dinner is usually the heavy stuff with desserts and my daily yoghurt intake unlike the other meals, of course... That pretty much sums up my daily diet and it does sound pretty okay to me..

Well, it is right?? I do eat heaps more at Malaysia hence the fact that there are more places to dine in and chill at compared to here... So, what's with the gaining effect? Oh well.. Maybe they have more preservatives in OZ foods, maybe they included cheese in everything, maybe they deliberately made the food more delicious so that i am tempted to buy more and more (Nisa, aku dah tak beli cereal lagi dah) or maybe the aliens have a secret mission going on trying to make all of the people in the world become more heavier so that it would be harder for us to escape when they are after us (which would also mean they would not be interested in interesting specimens like Posh Beckham or Paris Hilton.. Huyissshhh)

Okaaayyy.. I'm not going to go all paranoid.. It's just that I find it harder to stay fit.. Just 15 minutes playing futsal on a sekangkang kera punye padang at the back of our houses, I'm already losing my breath and trying very hard to stay focused (but still, that is not a valid reason for Syada to defend my goal when she IS my teammate)... Do I need to get back to my previous weight which is 46kg or do I need to exercise more than the rate I'm doing now and eat the same amount of food while I'm at it?? I'm loving my self now but I wish that my weight gain IS not the reason for my inability to keep fit....

Well, I'll just put on my running shoes and indulge in some jogging activity with syada as usual and if I need self-control, I have Cik Durra to remind me (nanti anak-anak kau pun jadi food machine, kena beli periuk besar sebab anak kau akan jerit "nasi..nasi...") Thankslah, Dur.. You're a Gem.. hehehehehe..

So Oporto will have to wait... until next week, that is..